All It Takes to Change Your Life is to Start Tracking Something New.

We seem to be… tired.

I don’t know what all the factors are. The price of things. The pace of things. I could find statistics I’ve heard. About the digital information we now face daily. We are in the second year after Covid. In a recession. In the middle of inflation. And the prices of Access classes have doubled.

There are definitely things.

But if we’re honest, at the end of the day - it doesn’t matter why we’re tired.

What we have been tracking and how we got there matter less. What we could start tracking and where that might take us matters more.

I heard a podcast today. A conversation between Martha Beck and Tim Ferriss. I'm so grateful to my friend Krysta for sharing it.

And the short of it was this: we can track suffering, or we can track joy. The Lion Tracker’s Guide to Life will be in rotation for the next little while.

For most of my life, I’ve been tracking suffering. I could go into all the details, but suffice it to say: nothing like peri-menopause to put your attention on something new. The intensity of change in my body got my full attention to the way I was living. It took another year to figure out what I would do.

But the truth is that I am tracking something new.

For a long time, with the Access tools, I was tracking change. Money change, business change, judgment change. I was also very committed to adding my energy to Access Consciousness. I know now that I was doing the fifth element, the need to be a savior, with everyone, including Access. And when that cleared out of my world, I no longer needed to do much of anything at all.

When the whole foundation for all you do in your business and life gets cleared away, and to top it all off, class/program attendance sucks balls -you have to find or make a new base.

I got honest.

I don’t think I even knew it, the change, had happened. I had been running for so long with the same motivation that for it to be gone was just... a beyond. Thankfully, business and money are tell-alls. Registrations were sparse, and with my dwindling income staring me in the face, I sought truth.

I had changed. Everything had changed. And we all knew it.

I’m not re-certifying as an Access Consciousness Facilitator because of any reason except that my track has changed. And trust me: It is so strange. The thing that was your lifeline, mentor, and "everything" now seems like the thing you need a break from. It's taken me almost a year of wrestling to finally face it.

But if I don’t bring income into the equation, I love where I am.

I’m, once again, a voracious consumer. I'm reading more books and listening to more podcasts than ever before. I’m peaceful inside. Sometimes a little depressed - this has been a big, fucking change - but for the most part peaceful. I’m strong. I’m calm.

And, I’m seeking again.

As a natural connector, many times a day I have this desire to share what I’m consuming with you. Which has been complicated. Because right in the middle of my pivot I decided I was a business coach, and while I am - I'm also not just that.

I tried to keep everything on-brand.

Which prefaces big declaration number two: fuck the brand.

The truth is: I need space.

I asked myself the other day: If I could buy anything for myself right now, what would it be? And immediately heard: Space. To be. To explore. To not “have” to create the money for this or that and to gently make money and create my way forward instead.

To track joy.

I haven't prioritized joy since I was two years old. Since then, it's been a voracious and all-consuming pace. I have been trying to save, prove, earn, work, and be good enough. I've been trying to save everyone in my path.

It's exhausting. I'm tired. And in the last few months, I've fired myself.

But the other key thing I realized today is that my business has always come from my interests. And for more than ten years, I was obsessively interested in Access Consciousness. Couldn't get enough.

And now?

They've shifted. Widened. I am seeking something new that, until today, I couldn’t put my finger on.

I don’t have classes and programs and such to offer you right now. I mean, if you ever want to coach with me, my door is wide open. But in my roots, my bones, my center - my energy is into recreating myself in a new way.

I am tracking joy.

And in big seeking journeys, I find amazing things. And have big epiphanies.

Today alone, I could have shared five different videos and podcasts with you. They would have changed your mind and day. You would have had at least three voice notes. And probably some writing...

Today would have been a sharing day.

And not every day will be a sharing day. Yesterday, I was depressed AF and didn't want to use the tools. The thread would have been silent, unless one of you was sharing.

So, I want you around. I have things to share with you.

But I need a format that is kind and inclusive of this very, very different phase of my life.

So.

You’re invited to Tracking Joy, a community and voice-note container.

Nothing weird.

We’ll use WhatsApp, and a link in the description to a Notion Doc that will hold every link that I share.

It won’t cost much, and you can cancel at any time, but that will be where I will be. Seeking, finding, sharing, being and becoming the what’s next of my journey that I’m sure will emerge. Celebrating with you when you find things and more of you. Looking into the links you find and the things you share, because your journey is interesting, too.

We can track joy together.

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